Saturday, August 07, 2010

No Title...

I have no title for this post, I just feel an urge to blog tonight.

I am sad... so sad.
I should be so happy and really grateful of some news but I think I am having a hard time understanding, and accepting.

If any of you know me personally, you know how much I LOVE our kitty Eddie. He's been part of our family for the past 10 years... since November 2000 at the age of 8 weeks he's been part of our family. Just recently he started feeling ill. We noticed that he was going to the washroom sooo much more and we were changing his litter box every day which is really abnormal for him, he is also drinking so much water and I put his color on him the other day and noticed he had lost a bit of weight. I dont like seeing him ill and on Thursday we brought him to the Vet.

Dr. B is so nice and easy to talk to... and instantly knew that Eddie had issues. In Oct 2009 he weighed over 16 pounds, and tonight he was 11pounds. They took some blood tests, and a urine sample to be analyzed and told us they would call us in the morning.
That was a long night....

Friday morning at about 11am Dr.B called us to let us know Eddie had diabetes.

In a way I was relieved that he is going to be okay.... that it wasn't Cancer, or FIP which our last kitties died of.

I feel --- sad, emotional, scared, overwhelmed, terrified, sometimes all at once. I've cried so much in the past 24 hours I think my eyeballs are gonna fall out. I know so many cats live great happy, healthy lives with this illness and I am hoping that Eddie is with us for a long time. I am really not ready to let him go nor will I ever be.

Eddie is now on a diabetic diet - which is no treats, and no mush mush. We give him mush mush on Wednesday and Sundays - he loves his Fancy Feast Salmon ;-) ... so we have to cut that out to a teaspoon on these days and had to eliminate his treats. This magical food they gave us ( 35$ a bag ) is actually pretty good... as per Eddie. We have some in a " treat " bag and give it to him after his insulin ... as a good reward.. but he doesn't know it's really his "real food " so that's a plus. He is slowly in transition from his old Purina One food to this special food. He'll be on this 100% by next Wednesday..

he's on insulin 2x per day... something i haven't had the nerves to try yet. Steve has been the one doing the needles, i just rub Eddie for support ... like he needs it.. I think I need it.

well... that's my No Title post for today.

I know things will be better and we'll be fine... but right now this SUCKS!

This message that the universe is sending me... I haven't figured it out yet but I am sure someday I will.
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